go ahead and make decisions without me
then expect me to fulfill your duty
Thanks for not asking for my opinion
then making me responsible
oh, you’re too tired of everything?
well. how about me
taking on the tasks you don’t want to do.
thanks again for not considering me
thanks for not appreciating me.
jealousy is what keeps me awake
jealousy is what I hate
that feeling in my stomach
and all those thoughts in my head
won’t ever leave me alone.
I know I mean a lot to you
but apparently she does too
and what does that make me?
well,
filled with jealousy.
sometimes I wonder why
I even try
anymore
and sometimes I think
its not worth it
anymore
we are at a stand-still
and its hard to push up hill
so I don’t know
anymore
I feel like I’m
wasting my time
or is it you that’s wasting mine
it’s just not the same
anymore.
isn’t it quite funny
that first you were the one falling
and now I’m the one that fell
just drag me through hell
in order to understand you
I’m telling you I want you
I need you
I can’t ignore my attraction to you
I suppose that first kiss
was where I fell
into the abyss
so this is how it goes
you tell me that we’re
“only friends”
does that mean
we have to be foes
because in order for me
not to fall again,
you either need to walk away
and leave me be
all alone
or I have to act like you’re
someone who’s just a deranged
stranger
I let my emotions get the best of me
and I guess I really couldn’t see
that you love me
differently
and I suppose I’ll never
ever
ever
understand why
“but things happen for a reason”
that’s what has been getting me by
even though you were my reason
for everything.
I guess I have to start over
…all over again
I guess dreams always die.
sometimes we reach them,
but we will always lose them
and I guess things always are
too good to be true
like you loving me
AND me loving you.
i guess its true
you don’t really know how bad it hurts
until you’re in their shoes.
music
beat against the drum
strum on the guitar
sing out your heart
play me a melody
serenade me
and make me fall in love
your raw talent is more than enough
those notes that I hear
and the passion that I see
fills me with emotion,
immediately
kisses
butterflies and finger tips
crawl slowly across my lips
little tiny lady bugs
dancing on my skin
the way I feel on the outside,
i feel better from within.
Torn
between reality and heaven
between life and a dream
between what I want and what I can get
the hardest questions never get answered
I could take a chance
I could risk it all.
but I just want to know why I can’t reach my dream
when that’s what they have been telling me
to do
I like you
but I love
you
